Finish FO camp

Yo, hiz.

Yea finally finish the FO camp.
To me, it is a success.
YEA YEA YEA

I LOVE THE EXZE
They are THE BEST TEAM i ever had.
Haha.

Actually when i first go to student union, i dun actually feel like joining them...
it is like almost everyone has a family(They went to FO camp, and already know one another)

The feeling when i go there is: awww another 3hrs to past.
I almost pon every training i had
(actually not really lar, go for first two traning, den CNY week, go out with parent,
den exam week, den after that got class chalet, next week i fall sick after chalet,
den another week past by due to "OTHERS THING"), b4 GPs prep, i go for last training.

Haha, when i go there, i felt loss again, cause, i really DK wat to do....
For the whole training, wat i do is memorize all the cheer and campsong and

I DID IT IN ONE DAY, haha. Some of it is i heard of them b4, others is quite catchy tune, so is actually quite easy. The one i scare of is: pearly shell, the XXX light and pass it on.

It is damn hard to remember....

Haha, GPs prep is quite a well done job, i actually manage to break my EMO, barrier.
COOL.

Actually, i think it is Daniel, Alex, Gail and Jerome that help me to mixed around the most, if not i most like emo through GPs prep and wondering if i want to go for FO camp anot. Haha.

Then come FO camp, haha , it is fun.
there is lots of tear shedding incidences.
It is kind of... i dk, but this kinda make a team great isnt it?


Yea, the game is also a success, the freshi has alot of fun,
we have kinda complete the objective isnt it>?


Haha, detail shouldnt been discussed... it is a memory that will be forever kept in heart...
By Tsubasa: Even if i the heart dun remeber, ur body will remember it.

Therefore i believe, this memory has been etched into my life forever.

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Confession #1:
Emo WeeHao

Like~da, this is not the real me, it is a shell of me when i am in primary school.
I have been emoing since kidz because i am the only child, but this is only the outermost mask of me.

haha sry.


Confession #2:
Lame WeeHao


Like~da, this is also not the real me, this is the seconde mask, haha. I use lame joke to cover up only...

SO wat the real me???
i also dun noe, but when i am silent, and thinking hard without any joke, i am close to be myself, i actually wear mask too long, i forget who am i le...

I am sry, but i act like myself in front of ppl, not even my parent noe how i think
It is kinda sad right?
Haha...


Confession #3:
Punishment for first night.

I change the mood huh?
Well, i also dk why i did it, but seeing u all cry, i dun wan to cont emo. so i decide it is the time to lame all the way....

Well, it is kinda sad, i actually also wan to cry with u all, i really envy edwin...
he can cry out like his wanted, i had forgotton how to cry for a team le, i really envy him. For dk when till now, my tear only shed for own selfish purposes. I think i am screw up.

Well, in the end i change the mood, it is a risk for me, cause i dk what the others will thnk of me? Will they dislike the random and stupid me who unable to think of the atmostphere right den...

The result is ok, everyone at least manage to go back to what they are. But after u all had a good laugh, i think i will still be the last one who are wondering... Why i screw up, making stupid mistake like that, has my 4 yrs in sec school gone to waste, SPORT 5 should not be a prob for me, why i can stupid mistake nia...

NVM, past is past, but the truth is i always like to keep repeating the past when i advise ppl to look forward. AWWW


Confession #4:
Prank on second night.


I hate it totally, in truth, although i did not cry, i am actually cursing in my heart....

Opps, sry GPs I/C, but i think i curse really alot, lol... Sry sry, although u did not hear it, still sry...




Confession #5:
Third night.


Like wat i say: It doesnt matter if do not appreciate our affort, as long as we have the go throught the process, get the experience, enjoy as a grp, it is enough.

Haha, i hope to inspire u all, but the truth is i am not sure about it myself.
It is so funny when i say that.
I dun want to say that, but in secondary school, it is usually others say something like this to inspire the team.
Haha, coming from my mouth is really LOL


Confession #6:
A team.


Lol, to tell the truth, i really hate to be in a team, it is really exhasuting and tiring. U will be in alot of stress. Or is it maybe me?

Firstly if u dun do good enough, slack, u are pulling the whole team down, not only urself. It is so pressuring. I dun mind to sink, but i hate to sink a grp down.

Secondly, if u do good enough, the team will be able to survive, but u noe in a team u can always do better, so u tend to give urself more&more pressure to improve.

Thirdly(not for me). If u do too good, people will all depand on u, u will need to shoulder a large burden. Yea, maybe a handful will help, but 8 ppl doing 20ppl job is very tired, if u are not in a team, u only need to do a single man job. Sink and swim is all the effort u put in, u can slack off responsiblility if u fail, by giving urself some reason. But u cant do it for being in a team, cause u are going to answer not for only urself.

Forthly, i do not noe if a grp welcome or not welcome me. It is so tiring alwyas to wonder about this. Goddam the teamwork my mind always will tell me. Sigh.
Maybe EXZE will change my mind, this is really a gd team i do not want to let go off.

Ya finally, letting it go, it felt better, but i somehow feel very very sry. I think i deceive EXZE for not being myself, and i give false impression.... I also do not not what i actually want actually. HAHA. There will always be more for me to learn ba.

Lastly, i dun know i putting up picture anot, let's wait for the photo to arrive first....



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